I feel like such a terrible friend not replying back to anyone. Ever since my car accident on Friday. I have so much on my plate I don’t like sirus adult bidness. On top of worrying about finals and work now I’ve added speaking to the family lawyer, talking to the car insurance, and trying to find the shell of a Mini Cooper to just basically transfer the transmission of my old Mini (that mind you I coughed up 3000 on a new one not even 5 months ago). I’m sorry but let me just go on hiatus from friends for a while. I don’t need them worrying. I’m okay. Promise. I just need some time to collect my life together.
Why and the hell do I feel like crying? I was out of it all day today -__-
I been trying to formulate what to type for the past twenty minutes but my fingers can’t grasp what my mind is thinking.
My legs are still a little sore from the hollywood sign hike from two days ago. That wasn’t even a difficult hike -___-. My bitchass needs to get back in shape.
I really don’t understand why I fall into these ruts. I just completely and randomly shut down from everyone every so often. I’m assuming it’s a whole extrovert with introvert tendencies sort of a deal. It’s not a choice of wanting to but rather a requirement I need to fulfill in order to recharge otherwise I’ll mentally deteriorate. It’s all good up until I become consumed with the idea that I’m not worthy of being happy. I feel I don’t deserve it.
There’s something liberating about forgetting to go pay my phone bill. I feel at ease and much happier without it~ seriously though I have to go pay for that tomorrow along with car parts for my poor Ethan since his check engine light went on a couple days ago waaaaahhhh :’o. Today was amazing and reading some kafka before bed will make it perfect :*